Me and Brett had our first date since he has been born last Saturday. It was soo much fun! We went to Olive Garden (my favorite restaurant) and then to Boondocks for go kart racing. I tried to remember my old tricks to get ahead. It worked, I caused a 7 car pile up behind me, which made it even easier to keep my lead! It was soo much fun! We are going to try to do that more often. It felt like when we were dating with no cares in the world!
Being a mom is a really neat experience. I love little Zach. He is such a sweetheart, but sometimes it can be hard. I am finding more things to keep me busy throughout the day so that I don't feel quite so lonely like reading books and visiting friends and family. The only thing that is kind of hard is the time in our life right now. Brett still has a few years of school left and so do I. I am not sure if I will get a chance to finish anytime soon. I REALLY hope I can! I miss school and I love learning. I never imagined I wouldn't get my degree. The last few years have been a surprise to me. I always thought I would just get married and finish school and still only be like 22 or 23 so I could start my family then. I guess things started to change when I decided to serve a mission. I had to take time off of school and really have only had one full semester since that decision. I will NEVER regret that decision! It was the best thing I had ever done to that point, but it put me behind. When I got home and got engaged we still planned on waiting a few years, but felt so strongly that we needed to try right away. We shortly after found out we were expecting Zach. Again, a decision I will never regret, we love him and know he is supposed to be in our family, still its hard to feel like I skipped over some things that I never dreamed I would miss out on. Plus also making Brett's life harder by having to work and going to school at the same time has brought on a lot of guilt, but I guess the only things that have postponed my degree are things Heavenly Father asked me/ us to do so it must be part of the plan for us. I guess we just need to realize that God has his own plan for us. Sometimes we may not get the chance to do some things that we always imagined we would, but in return we get to do other things far more amazing. We just need to put our trust into him and keep following. It reminds me of a quote I heard on my mission "if you want to make God laugh, show Him your plans!"
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