Well its the middle of the night. I am awake I guess because I am used to being awake for Zach, but I think we figured out how to get him to sleep through the whole night. My what a blessing that is! 

He really has been quite a joy in our lives. I think we are finally starting to get the hang of having him here too! Its been nice lately cause he is finally starting to like his bouncer, it gives me the freedom to clean the house while he is awake and just have him follow me. That really helps out! Now I can relax while he is sleeping instead of trying to stuff that time full of cleaning that house and getting ready. 

Zach is getting so big! I cant even believe it! He is so much more aware of people and things around him! He is smiling a lot lately which is just about the cutest thing ever EXCEPT for when he coos, oh my gosh that just about melts my heart every time he tries to talk! What a cutie! He really is such a blessing in our lives! 

I think we are finally starting to get our own relationship back too. For awhile we were so overwhelmed with being parents and using all of our time with Zach that our relationship was kind of put on the back burner, but now its been fun to be able to have some time to just spend with each other when Zach goes to bed etc.

Well its official, I will be able to go back to school! I am so excited! I have been hoping soo bad that I would be able to. I just feel so incomplete. I will be taking online and independent study classes, I think that will be a good and bad thing, but it will be soo fun to continue to learn and grow and progress. I really do love learning. I guess thats partly due to the fact that I was born to two school teachers, but I have missed taking classes. I always want to be learning something new, there is such a thrill in gaining more knowledge to me. I am sure that sounds nerdy, and maybe it would be if I was a better student, but I think I am safe to say it. I just want to be careful. My mom and I were having a conversation about how Satan makes us women feel like "just being a mom" isn't enough, that we should be able to do more than that too. I will need to be careful not to let school interfere with my being a mother and wife. That is my first and really only priority that matters. I guess when I think about it when I come to stand before the Lord someday thats really one of the only things that will matter to him. I would not want to stand there and say, "well I would have been there more for my family but I was just so wrapped up in my career and education and things of the world that I just didn't have time for them." I don't think that would go over well. 

I guess what I am saying is that I need to be careful and realize that most of the feelings of "just being a mom" come from Satan who his main goal is to destroy the family unit. Being a full time mother IS what I was always meant to do. That is no small task and working etc. is not going to make me a better person, even though the world says you are better if you can do it all. It doesn't make you a better woman, it makes you a distracted woman, distracted from the things that really matter in life. My children will grow up so fast and I don't want to miss this time just because I was afraid I didn't get in all the stuff that I wanted to do. I will continue my education, as long as it doesn't interfere with my family life. 

Brett is getting excited about school and doing well right now! Its so cute to see him so excited about his classes! I am so proud of him! I think now that we decided to have him just take a few classes at a time it will be so much easier to do it all! I think he has just had too much on his plate, working 30 hours, school and being a dad! Thats  a lot for anyone to take in! He is a great dad to Zach, very attentive. I have been so blessed to have him as a husband! He is such a family man. I hear of so many woman that have problems with their husband after they have a baby because they become jealous of the baby taking away all or their wives time, but Brett is fully apart of Zach's life and helping me take care of Zach that its something we do together. I just goes to show you that you can be a happy person who loves life and still be responsible! Brett is great at doing that! 

Brett is also such a great husband. He is always trying to help me and take care of me. He never complains that I am not working, instead he is glad that I don't. He always tries to appreciate what I am doing and always wants to spend time with me.  I am so glad that I don't have one of those husbands that just comes home and wants to watch sports and tune out the world. His family is his world and its so much fun to me to have a friend like that! He is also a good caretaker. Whenever I am tired or sick he will make me something to eat or give me a chance to sleep and take care of Zach or whatever. He always does it without complaint. He makes it possible for me to do what I need to do in life, ex. be a mother because he helps me when I dont have the strength. He is truly a very Christ-like person and I have a lot to learn from him. I makes me mad when people don't see how amazing he is! A few people think that just because he smiles a lot that he only can play but doesn't do responsible things, that is SO not true! He is a great example of being able to enjoy life and still do what needs to be done. 

Well its late and I am finally getting tired so I will retire to bed! Happy Thanksgiving. I have a lot to be grateful for! I have a wonderful family and the gospel and able to pay the bills etc. I am truly blessed!

 

Well all is well on the Pettit front. We are having fun with Zach now that he can do a little more. Each day we have dance time where we put on some music and move his little arms and legs to the beat. Sometimes he resists, but for the most part he enjoys it and smiles along. We are getting more used to each other. We are starting to learn his little cries and all his other little tells of what is wrong. All in all though he is a really good baby! He is usually quite content unless he needs something! We love him and are so grateful he is apart of our family! 

Me and Brett had our first date since he has been born last Saturday. It was soo much fun! We went to Olive Garden (my favorite restaurant) and then to Boondocks for go kart racing. I tried to remember my old tricks to get ahead. It worked, I caused a 7 car pile up behind me, which made it even easier to keep my lead! It was soo much fun! We are going to try to do that more often. It felt like when we were dating with no cares in the world! 

Being a mom is a really neat experience. I love little Zach. He is such a sweetheart, but sometimes it can be hard. I am finding more things to keep me busy throughout the day so that I don't feel quite so lonely like reading books and visiting friends and family. The only thing that is kind of hard is the time in our life right now. Brett still has a few years of school left and so do I. I am not sure if I will get a chance to finish anytime soon. I REALLY hope I can! I miss school and I love learning. I never imagined I wouldn't get my degree. The last few years have been a surprise to me. I always thought I would just get married and finish school and still only be like 22 or 23 so I could start my family then. I guess things started to change when I decided to serve a mission. I had to take time off of school and really have only had one full semester since that decision. I will NEVER regret that decision! It was the best thing I had ever done to that point, but it put me behind. When I got home and got engaged we still planned on waiting a few years, but felt so strongly that we needed to try right away. We shortly after found out we were expecting Zach. Again, a decision I will never regret, we love him and know he is supposed to be in our family, still its hard to feel like I skipped over some things that I never dreamed I would miss out on. Plus also making Brett's life harder by having to work and going to school at the same time has brought on a lot of guilt, but I guess the only things that have postponed my degree are things Heavenly Father asked me/ us to do so it must be part of the plan for us. I guess we just need to realize that God has his own plan for us. Sometimes we may not get the chance to do some things that we always imagined we would, but in return we get to do other things far more amazing. We just need to put our trust into him and keep following. It reminds me of a quote I heard on my mission "if you want to make God laugh, show Him your plans!"